Mania

My mind burns,
Like the tears that track down my cheeks,
Pulsating with insanity.
Hysteria grips my being with her
Cold
Pitiless
Claws
And tears my thoughts to shreds.
Where is your warmth you promised?
You're
Not
Here.
And I fall deeper into the
Bottomless pit
Of mania
That ensnares me,
Has held my hand
And watched my every move
Since the day I was born.
I was born for this.
Her sickeningly sweet
Siren song
Calls my name,
Moves my hand and
Moves my blade.
I swore to you I'd never cut again.
I swore to you I'd
Never
Be the cause of my own bloodshed
Ever again.
But she wraps me up in ice
And promises just once more and
The pain
Will
Stop.
Why does she keep lying to me?
Why do I keep getting
Sucked
Back
In?